About Me

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I was born in 1988 into a family that consisted mostly of artists and healthcare professionals. With the help of early interventions, including specialized education, psychotherapy, and eventually medication, I started making friends at three years old and I still stay close with several friends that I have known since I was in elementary and middle school. I developed an interest in sophisticated movies and literature, including Shakespeare at the age of eight, and eventually decided that I wanted to make films. When I studied Cinema at Ithaca college, I was quick to realize that I was also fascinated by writing memoirs and that the writing side of film and television was where I could succeed academically. Upon graduation, I decided to break in by producing my own work and other people’s work to break into the industry. I received a master’s degree from NYU in Integrated Digital Media from NYU in order to seek a more stable career and learned a great deal about social media and other emerging technologies.

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Unfortunately, my success was followed by a two-year long severe mental health crisis that included three hospitalizations for acute mania which caused my thoughts to multiply and come and go at the speed of light. This made clear communication with my family impossible to a degree that I never experienced except maybe when I was a toddler. Eventually, I was led to a diagnosis of bipolar disorder. After the third hospitalization in 2015, which was a choice I made entirely own my own, my days of full-blown mania were over, but my battle with depression was just beginning. My creativity was weakened and antidepressants kept backfiring. I never forgot that as a student I could easily come up with good ideas and was determined to feel that way again.

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So why am I now writing this blog? In 2020, I started receiving microdoses of Ketamine to treat depression. I’m not writing as a lobbyist or doctor to make a claim that psychedelic medicine is appropriate for all patients that are struggling. That’s not something I’m qualified to do, but I do understand the frustration of searching for a solution that really works. My hope is that sharing frank and honest reflections on my ongoing experience with ketamine infusions and the other medications I have to take will help inform readers of the possibilities so they can decide what to think and discuss options with their providers. I am also going to be reading up on articles that describe the possibilities that are being explored for other similar meds and sharing what I learn as I go.